The Silencing Peace of God

Okay, I feel like I have a lot to write about today. 

First thing I want to say, is that I just wrote this post, down to the point of publish, and for some reason my computer refreshed and cleared my work. Yea, sad! However, I know that what I have to say is important enough to write all over again from scratch. 

Alright so, second thing is that it is February 23, 2012 and it is 65 degrees outside. It is a miracle! Praise God for such fantastic weather. If I wasn't getting over an illness I would have went on a jog with my dog today. 

And no, I did not just mean to rhyme. 

This fluffy mess of pure joy is named Squishy! 

He may look like a hard core farm cat, but he is all love. And he was so enjoying the weather this morning that when I went outside to sit on the porch he crawled in my lap, practically begging for a picture. 

Anyway, with that said I can move along to the third thing.

The silencing peace of God. 

Yeah, I know that is a stretched transition, from cat to God, but bare with me. 

I am just so excited to be serving such a loving and faithful God. Words cannot appropriately describe His glory, but I will do my best. 

So, I have always pretty much understood that Jesus died for humanities sin, even though he was pure and sustained by it himself. However, a point came in my life where that head knowledge became heart knowledge and my prayers changed. It wasn't so much "God give me everything," but rather "God I give you everything." 

Although it was hard because how could I possibly give anything worthy back to the Savior of my life! 

But I began to understand that it wasn't about what I had to give Him, it was the willingness to give it that was important. 

Then I had another problem, I realized that as much as I wanted to give my all to the Lord, I could not even do that without His guidance. I needed Him to lead me closer, to humble me, and give me wisdom in His workings. 

And if that wasn't all, He used those things to help me understand that I may pray for something but His will is ultimately so much sweeter than whatever I may plan or ask for. 

I guess you could say the moral of this seemingly confusing story is that God wants to go above and beyond our expectations. He has a plan for our lives, but we cannot find it by being in control. 

Loosing yourself is finding the peace of God. 

All you can do is stand back in awe and 

Silence.